what up Monday

soooooo it's Monday.
I'm ready for the week thanks to Beyonce's new music video-she's proving she can throw the best slumber party everrrr
(we at apartment 1r have it on allll the time)

cheers to the new week y'all xo

New York, New York the city so nice they named it twice!

my fortune cookie tonight everybody...

it sort of says it all....

so the thing is...
New York is spectacular on a good day, and ridiculously draining on a bad one. I have reached the stage where I'm officially  a resident of this city. I'm not on an endless vacation anymore.

 I'm more aware of money or the lack thereof  and what my next step is with acting and how hard it is to find a job here period and boring five year plans and who I let into my life and I know where to eat and not to eat and I have a dog and I have real friends not fake acquaintances and I don't get lost on the subway so much anymore.

 I feel like no matter who you ask they will say "you know if you can live here after about 1 month... you either love it or you hate it." New York is a lesson in extremes...so this month like every other one has been full of ups and downs. I'm realizing without my knowing it, Brooklyn has sort of become my home, or something? How did that happen? How did I meet my neighbors? How did I start cooking with my roommates, and develop a day to day routine? How do I not break down on my bad days? How do I go longer in between visits home?

This is the first holiday I will celebrate away from the south, but thankfully (ha) I have been invited several places for Thanksgiving this year. It is amazing how many good people I have found here. It is amazing how once you do, you cling to them with all of your might-I guess this month is as my cookie said a time of change. I'm going to try really hard to welcome change. I'm going to be really thankful for this crazy place and all of the people in it. It's so easy to become calloused here-to go so hard all day without looking up and asking how someone else is doing-I don't want to get sucked into that. I want to embrace these extremes and ride them out as they come. (easier said than done)
cause you know what? One day I'm going to be so bored, and I'm going to miss this time. I'm going to miss the endless frustration of this city.  I'm going to miss not knowing what happens next, and waiting for the next person around the corner.

long story short-I'm thankful for my little world today x

sorry to have been quiet you all

quite a while ago I did this post on taking stock, so since I've been away I thought it would be an excellent way to catch up with you dear reader!

Making: well I'm going to Friendsgiving this weekend and offered to bring dessert-what that will be who knows. so if you know of a good recipe let your girl know!

Cooking: taco soup

Drinking: coffee all day every day

Reading: "It was November-the month of crimson sunsets, parting birds, deep, sad hyms of the sea, passionate wind-songs in the pines. Anne roamed through the pineland alleys in the park and, as she said, let the great sweeping wind blow the fogs out of her soul." Anne of Green Gables

Wanting: a new coat from Zara

Looking: at gray New York sky

Playing: 

 

Wasting: time worrying about dumb sh*t

Wishing: for some warm days

Enjoying: evening walks with Elvis before bed

Waiting: for the day he is too big to carry

Liking: two new shows- Manhattan Love Story and Marry Me 

Wondering: what is Ryan doing right this second.

Loving: the mail

Hoping: for a very merry Christmas

Marveling: at how big Elvis has gotten already! look at those legs at just 4 months old

Needing: all of the candles

Smelling:  perfume on my scarf 

Wearing: new shoes!

Following: littlellama on instagram! her posts are the best.

Noticing: the bare trees on my street

Thinking: about how nice it will be when Elvis doesn't cry when I leave the room

Feeling: the coming of a new year

Bookmarking: Wild by Cheryl Strayed
"Uncertain as I was as I pushed forward, I felt right in my pushing, as if the effort itself meant something. That perhaps being amidst the undesecrated beauty of the wilderness meant I too could be undesecrated, regardless of the regrettable things I'd done to others or myself or the regrettable things that had been done to me. Of all the things I'd been skeptical about, I didn't feel skeptical about this: the wilderness had a clarity that included me.”

Opening: new packs of tights all the time, apparently puppies have sharp nails...

Giggling: at Jillian rapping Kanye West to Elvis (fyi HE LOVES IT)

November

"My heart is dancin' to a November tune and I hope that you hear it singin songs about you.."

"November Blue"
Avett Brothers




It's November...let's all be thankful. November gets so overlooked because everyone is on the Christmas train. I'm going to try my hardest to soak up these last fall days! I'm also attempting to share one thing I'm very thankful for each week in November :) let's get cheesy!

Tonight I'm thankful for my neighborhood.

I walk Elvis each morning on yellow leaf covered streets...my next door neighbors wave and say good morning from their stoops. I see the woman across the street sweeping her walkway as her husband has a cigarette with his morning coffee. We walk past the flower shop (where someone is always doing some sort of construction) and pass preschoolers wearing hats and bubble jackets walking with Mom or Dad to school. We head past the old church and into the park-we are greeted by lots of puppy friends big and small. After every squirrel has been chased,  I gather up a reluctant Elvis and drag him out of the park passing the 3rd and 4th graders who walk  to school with their friends and secretly practice cuss words. We take a stroll down Jefferson street and watch the birds hop along the fence posts, then round the corner and walk up four steps into a warm apartment.

 

a halloween in review

I love Halloween you guys! I mean, costumes, candy, weird movies, ghost stories, fall weather...how could you not love it? It's so theatrical! This year my darling Wendy bird came to visit for my first Halloween in the city. We went to Brooklyn Bowl to see Capital Cities perform- f.y.i. it was a great show. Everyone there was in an elaborate costume-the band even threw an impromptu dance party at the end of the show. They literally got out a giant stereo and played fun songs and danced-

 

This year I was pretty unprepared on the costume front-I found myself in a massive line at party city at 4 in the afternoon the day of...not a good plan. I did manage to find two amazing wigs! I wish this was my real hair. I love this wig so much, and I can not stress enough how much I now miss my bangs, and want to die my hair purple. 

 

Wendy made an amazing Taylor Swift-she also did awkward Taylor Swift dances throughout the night that continue to make me giggle to myself on the train. 

 This was also Elvis' very first Halloween of his whole life!

 

all in all it was a total success-I decided I'm not done being spooky so I've started watching American Horror Story :) did you do anything fun on Halloween? what are your thoughts on bangs and/or purple hair?

lazy days

it has been a good day spent laying in bed in apartment 1r
last week knocked me out...there was:
   a play
   a friend
   an interview
   a puppy
   a halloween night
  and a lot of cold rain
  -more on that stuff later
hope your Sunday was as slow moving as mine-cheers to Monday and high hopes for November!